Jesus Sits With Me

I’m ending this year at one of my favourite places on earth. My parents cottage. It’s cold and dark and dreary but still beautiful. 

2018 has been the same way. Highs like writing my second book, lows like getting diagnosed with bipolar. But always beautiful. 

I took the last six weeks or so to just be quiet. To pray and not just speak but sit in silence with God. To read just for the sake of communion, not for writing. To be quiet on social media and just observe. 

I’ve made several decisions in this quiet time and done quite a bit of private writing. But I want to tell you the one phrase that has come up for me more than any other. 

Jesus sits with me. 

That’s all. No guarantee of light or happy. No guarantee that the darkness will not seep into my mind. Just the promise that no matter what, Jesus sits with me. 

So now I look ahead to 2019. I don’t know what it will bring. 

But I know who sits beside me. 

I’ll leave you with the words to a song I finished tonight. 

Feeling tossed about

Outside the storm is raging

Sitting in the dark

And now my heart is racing

Dark waters rising

My future is so unclear

I want to fly but

Fear keeps me sitting here

Only this one things is sure

Hope keeps me secure

The dark might be all I see

But Jesus sits with me

Fear had gripped my heart

I had no desire to leave

Jesus called me out

Said only to Him to cleave

He reached out His hand

Vowed I’d never be alone

Still in the darkness

I stepped out in the unknown

Only this one thing is sure

Hope keeps me secure

The dark might be all I see 

But Jesus walks with me

Mountains and valleys

Through failures, vict’ry, and loss

Jesus walked with me

In the shadow of the cross

Now I know the truth

No matter what comes my way

Jesus is with me

Every minute, every day

Only this one thing is sure

Hope keeps me secure

The dark might be all I see

But Jesus is with me