sitting with sadness
I heard some bad news a couple of weeks ago. The kind of news that makes you want to cry. The kind that pulls up a chair, sits with you, and brings up all sorts of memories, good and bad. This sad news sat with me until I was not only thinking of that particular news, but many things associated with it. It brought up terrible things from the past year. It made me think through things I had hoped were forgotten. I sat with this sadness for a while, until I started worrying about how sad I was. With my struggles with depression, I start to worry when I feel on the verge of tears for two weeks. So, in my weird way, I sat down and started analyzing myself. Was I depressed? My sure indicators are that I want to stay away from all. the. people. / run. away. But I wasn’t doing that. Instead, I actually told a few people about it. I told them that it was breaking my heart, and even that it was bringing up other things for me. The other indicator that I’m depressed is that I’m completely overwhelmed by the thought that nothing will ever be ok. And I honestly don’t feel that way right now.
So, I said to myself, if you’re not depressed, why are you so sad?
I came to this conclusion. Some things in life are just overwhelmingly sad. And its not wrong to feel that way. It doesn’t even make you depressed.
If you start looking around, the world is a pretty sad place. You can always find something sad going on around the world with a simple click. But you don’t even have to look that far. Its almost guaranteed that someone you know is going through something hard and sad. For that matter, we often have something going on in our own life!
So how do we sit with this sadness? How do we acknowledge the sorrow without letting it ruin our lives?
I was reminded of a verse out of II Corinthians 6 this week. “As sorrowful, yet alway rejoicing.” Yes, we will always sit with sadness, to varying degrees, but we can always invite rejoicing too. It feels weird, but they can both sit at the same table. As Christians we have so much to rejoice in. Our salvation, the hope of Heaven, the delight of His Presence, the list goes on.
So if this week you find yourself sitting with sadness, that’s ok. There’s nothing wrong with sadness. Sit with it. Feel it. Allow it to make you more compassionate and soft. But don’t let it take over your life or make you bitter. Invite rejoicing to join you at the table.